Gone

I'm terrified. I'm at a crossroads. I want to desperately get out and start with a clean slate and be the confident person I want to be rather than being stuck with a lame label on my back. Gotham can't hold me down anymore but on the other hand I don't know what's out there.

Do I run? I'm stuck. There's conflicting views and opinions. I'm so lost. If I leave and I lose stability. If I stay I lose out on this chance and always stuck with another excuse.

"There'll always be another time."

"Don't worry it'll happen eventually."

"You'll get a break one day"

I don't want these uncertainities. I've come to the conclusion that I should leave and explore. Finally discover and let loose.

I want to be that person. I want to be confident. I want to be the ones that attract people rather than push them away.

I want to be a whole new ME, and it starts with this first step.

Strength

It's been years since I've written here. And after sifting through all the rubble I see how much I've grown through out the years. From being such a disaster I've become a bit more mature, a little more refined. Sure I still make mistakes and I still need to learn but I've acquired the mentality to grow and finally accept my mistakes I can't blame it on others and I most certainly must man up to my mistakes. I've learned that I can't be a crutch on others but a strong body. And this new thought process comes from my family and friends. And today marks my first day walking rather than crawling. I will not be a loser.

I will be the embodiment of strength.